Monday, June 11, 2007

I've been so fucking busy, I feel like eating shit. Blah, I am so tired, my eye bags are like your Mommy's breasts. Si beh big and saggy, man I'm sad. Need to get rid of those bags before strangers come up to me and tell me that I look like Frankestein. I've been busy for the first 2 weeks of June. F&N coursework almost killed me, but I finished it. The work's like, crap but who cares. I did my ultimaaaaaaate best, HOD please don't send it back to me to edit.

Aunt's funeral was... I don't know. She got cremated and probably spending time with her brother-in-law now. I hope she enjoys her life up there. We'll all miss her. Oh yeah, my eyebags are also due to being constantly emotional upon looking at the coffin at the funeral, thinking about how she used to be so healthy and fine. Well...

Life's fucking good (minus the funeral part). I got away from home and stayed out for 4 days. One of the days, I had steamboat with the best people, the usual bunch. The rest of the days, Baby was with me. All day and all night long. Damn I love him.

My hair messy like hell.

This is...

The best people.

Talking about staying away from home, his Mommy popped into my mind. It scares the shit out of me when I think of his Mommy. I don't know how to make her happy, I don't know what to say to please her. I feel weird. I cannot open up to people just like that *snaps finger*. I need at least talk to people for 2 whole weeks or one.

If you do not know, I'm a piece of silent shit when I'm with people I just knew. What if mommy-in-law doesn't like me? What if she thinks that I'm too young? What if she sees me as a not initiative girl, who does nothing but walking around the house? What if she thinks I'm useless?! Goddamnit I wanna be a good daughter-in law.

I wanna get along really well with Baby's family. But I always take 326465489731 steps back when I see his Mommy. Not that I dislike her. She's a capable woman, one of a kind. Beautiful and smart. It's just me... I'm scared of everything now.

Goodnight.